So err. I promised to feature *Brenna-Ivy... a month ago? Yeah, my internet persona is suffering.

But here it is, finally! Without thumbnails because, sadly, but that'll only add to the surprise.

Welcome, because I like the idea and background. The characters too, but that's self-evident.

Precious because it's so damn cute. I'm not usually the 'eeh, cute' kinda person, but I already know these characters (sorta) and yeah. It really is.

A pic from the Kuroshitsuji photoshoot because I love stained-glass windows. The photography itself is medio-- no, no, I jest. I keep coming back to this photo, for some reason.

Secondly, I'm trying NaNoWriMo this year. I started a week late so this'll be FUN and GIGGLES. But hey, I'm writing again, and I'm writing some of my favourite characters, which is awesome! I might just end up writing a couple different shorter stories about them to get to my 50.000 words. Oof, that's a large number. I've only got 3000~ so far! It almost makes me panic.

Thirdly, I got my hands on an almost-antique suit, some vests and jackets. The suit used to belong to my grandfather, which is simultaneously weird and absolutely awesome. I think it's about... 70 or 80 years old. Whoa. It's in ridiculously good condition, theory is it was his wedding suit and has only been worn a few times. It had the dry-cleaning tags still on them, stapled to the fabric with rusted staples. There also might be some mold in it, so I'm probably taking it to a dry cleaner again to see if they can clean that out carefully. Unfortunately the pants don't fit, but I might try to let them out if I ever feel brave enough. They're really nice pants. The vest and jacket are very nice too, and I can actually wear those. I can tell you I most definitely will.

-Silver

I get it.

Everyone has always told me these seemingly meaningless life mantras I knew in my rational mind to be important if only I got it. If only my irrational mind would get it. Well. I have been broken and reforged stronger.

Anger is a powerful thing.

I do not like being teased. It's not like it's the end of the world, or my life is ruined when someone pokes fun at me, but it's annoying and frustrating and I rather not.

So why is it that when I ask someone to stop they instead double their efforts? I'm talking about friends here, people I care about and who care about me, my mom does it, my ex did. You'd think it wouldn't be such an effort to not do something, right? It's even spares the trouble of finding a weak spot and poking it repeatedly. But no, they take my plea as an invitation and an indication they're on the right track. Then, when I invariably get upset or ask again, more forcefully, I'm accused of being grumpy, of overreacting, I'm told I need to loosen up and why is it such a big deal, it's just teasing. It's not like it's the end of the world, right? And I'd better toughen up if any little teasing gets me upset like that, right?

No. It's not any little teasing. It's someone I care about and who I trust poking at a nerve despite my asking them not to. In a very concrete example, I'm ticklish and when people find that out, I often tell them very seriously not to go too far with it. A friend disregarded this and set out on finding my most ticklish spot, stopping only when I was crying because I couldn't breathe. Because of the position of trust these things hit harder than if it were a random thing.

I'd think it's a small thing for friends to ask eachother, to not do something frustrating. In itself, it's no big deal, but it would make things easier if there was no need to keep myself shielded against it when among friends. When accidental, or a random occurence, it would also not be such a problem. I just can't grasp why it won't stop.

Because I can.

The old list:
1. Figure out the next year at university, classes-wise. Seriously. Do that NOW, self. Check!
2. ENLIST FOR THOSE DAMN CLASSES ASAP Check!
3. Write! I'm on a writing-roll! Aiming for 30.000 words.
4. Get sorted for that meetup Sunday. Check!
5. Get new shoes. No check, have not been able to find a nice store.
6. Make a doctor's appointment. No check. I er. I've been... to the moon. Too busy. Yeah.
7. Finish that steampunk project. No check either. Turns out I suck at making gloves.
8. Get a life. But I'm feeling like I'm trying to lead three already!
9. Get a job. No check. Bad me.
10. What the hell, get a hobby too. Possible check! Whoo!

The new (and improved) list:
1. Write. Write! Write!
2. Make a doctor's appointment.
3. Get that possible hobby going.
4. Look into crossdressing.
5. Get a haircut. Damn, split ends.
6. Try to salvage some of that steampunk project.
7. Get ready for the new year.
8. Look into publishing.
9. Keep an eye open for a job.
10. Decide if I want to move out.

And that's all.

-Silver

So I've been saving up a lot of money. And today I figured I'd do something fun, new shoes or whatever. Well, guess what, second time of my life my wallet gets stolen. Before I blocked my bank passes they got 1250 euros. I wish them a hearty kick in the head.

P.S. Sarah from Laced Up made it all better. Or a whole lot, at least. She's so awesome, I come close to fangirlism.